Moments of Regret

I regret developing the photos.. seriously.. i think i'm insane for awhile.. hm.. will juz stick it in one corner of mi photo album..

Had dinner with xian last nite @fish n co and sum up of crappy things and suqin's present.

Roughly some ideas for her and we gotta head bugis on sat to get everything done and meet up for dinner on sundae! woah.. such a pack weekend.. and next week mi cousin goin back to aussie for her graduation with her mum.. so hopes everything goes well.. too bad i can't go.. but it's alritez

I'm still feeling dangling here anyway.. dunno which moment is right to juz smack the questions to him.. i figure it shall be a while.. coz i'm dazing in the train the whole mornin thinkin of wat exact moment will i ask him out and den how am i suppose to just tell him..

Wat everyone told me was true, get an ans from him and just move on with life.. isn't saying it easier den actually doing it.. i wish i had so much courage in me.. when i'm typin now.. mi hands were so cold! and mi stomach is turning upside down.. how am i suppose to face him and say all those out? but i noe tat i really needa get an ans from him.. tat's when i think tat mi feeling has subside abit.. so i'm waiting.. hmmm

Kinda silly to actually think that i shall go back where to err juz liking him tat will do.. i dun need the love return from him.. yeah.. but seriously tink again, wat am i waiting for.. i noe i noe.. is all about letting go...

True, i shall be open up and get to know more people.. but i really dun need it now..

I dun wan to be unfair to another person.. coz everything i do.. is all abt him.. like wen said.. joel is not even anywhere nearer to dan.. yeah.. i kept all the guys away i noe..

Can i really find someone like him? am i doing some sort of replacement? all i'm looking for is his shadow..

I'm still okie, thanks for not letting my tears roll down again.. but i noe i soon will coz utimately i will still need to face it..

Gers, dun worry abt me alritez.. just wanna pour everything out again.. once mi hectic mass mailing starts.. i dun haf space for all these.. and mayb everything will die down soon..

I dun wan it to affect my work again.. compare to study days.. working is all different story.. i'm an emotional affected kinda person. I dunno when can i really take a break from all these.. i noe everything will start to be busi and i wun haf time for all this break.. and i need to be attentive and do such much things @office.. i can't afford to make mistakes now..

i need some days to recover from watever ans he will give..

"if i noe the ans.. y will i make miself so miserable ya.. den again.. i will run away from it.. and not facing the truth.. alritez.. i noe i noe.." i'm rubbishing again..

If heaven noes the ans, y can't give me a sign? Or am i still not detecting it yet.. i'm just stupid issit?

Com'on.. i'm tired liao.. just fill me with an ans! PLEASE!

Jeez.. killing the rest of 4hrs.. err.. printing labels? alot of things are waiting for approval.. i did mi job le k!

Boss outta appt meaning tml morning den i will be busi..

Wed is here soon..

Tonight heading gym.. fat le la.. wat lost weight and back to sq 1... sobs sobs..

I will be determine to.. and hopefully i get mi curls soon! :)

KeL