Still in office.. at such hour

hello

well, i'm still in office apparently... today wasn't supposed to be here.. but i felt i had nowhere to go..

sms mi boss to let me take a half dae leave but i end up working since there stuffs for me to work on and i had no place in mind to head.

was feeling rather really upset after wat wen said.. in fact yeah i noe how much chances are there between me and 'D'. it's absolutely 0!

i seriously dun wan to be keep in this guessing game.. and i really cannot control myself of thinking too much. at the end of the daee. i'm the one suffering.. but i dun need him to noe how much i had gone thru all these shits.. coz in fact i did nothin at all and felt really stupid..

i really had no sense of direction.. being feeling dangling there and advices are here n there everywhere.. really make me trapped in a circle..

i noe the only person that can help me is myself. yeah... tonite i shall just go home and sleep. tat will be the solution!

if i got the strength to online, just wait to see if he got home i guess nothing much.. he's working night shift.. from 5.30 to 11pm.. he's more active @nite kinda person..

i think he worked for these 4days really shagged but i think at the end of the dae he find it worthwhile can le..

one more day to weekend, tis weekend... i dunno wat i need to do.. mayb after tml i will make some plans.. haven being planning wat to do for the week.. really aimlessly.. and everyday was basically just stoning and dazing abt flashbacks.. abt every small little things.. now with wen's words and mx's words.. i'm totally confused! As a guy point of view, can anione help???

All i wanna noe is if he got ani feeling towards me. I dun think for now is like i wan to be his gf kinda thing.. is just that after the chalet, am i important to him? but i can sense tat i'm not important at all... so getting mi 6th sense right this time round huh.. den simply dun need to get his ans.. i noe tat's 0% le ba...

first of all, soccer is his life 2nd of all, is his money and work.. so yeah..

i really dunno how to ans him abt mi requirement for findin a bf.. i really found mi hand really cannot touch the keys for a moment and think of wat to say.. so i say nvm treat it as i din ask tat qtn and he asked me haha y? den i was like dunno. tat's end the conversation n he went to bathe.

wat if i say tat someone is abt him.. i really cannot think of wat's the reply back and den i dun wan to be stone in the office whole dae or running in tears now.. u noe wat i mean..

he seems quite stressed n tired with work n all.. so for e time being i dun feel like disturbing him..

mayb for now.. the ans is not tat impt.. i choose to keep things the way it is now.. rather comfortable being lidat.. though sometimes abit of disappointing really makes me so sad..

It's all abt him as always wonder u guys will be sick n bored abt reading mi blog..

It's important to noe now that the concerns from frens are around me! And i noe some of ya are worry abt me.. i'm okie i will be fine.. if one day i let it out and let it go.. pls support me and encourage me and advice me and be there when i need u.. (tis dae seems to be coming!)

I'm going to westmall now.. and get the slippers changed and put it at her doorstep.. tis ger ar.. slippers wearout liaoz somewhere wear to work sia.. haiyoh.. so lazy one.. juz being a good fren to get it for her.. treat her like a sis more.. somemore we r virgos.. so she kinda understand me more.. and muz thanks her loads man.. for everything.. since the 1st supper and the xstitch.. haa i mentioned anor time again! oopsz

Well well.. her big dae is next week! I'm gonna crack miself up @ the movie thearter! Like zh, he haven visit the cinema for like ages long.. haa.. so funny hope the dae is good.. and filled with pressies! oh god.. yeah i need to start gettin more ideas! She nv give hint so hard to find sia!

byebye.. goin off liaoz..

Superlistic Tired Kel