It doesn't matter to me animore

Finally i shall say the blog is working.. the bar is not distorted.. thanks god for that..

I can happily type mi blog..

First of all i sum up mi feeling for last night, i was online.. chatting as usual.. so i din really care abt the main contact list.. somehow after like 2hrs later.. mi itchy hand went to click on everyone's display pic.. coz not mani shown the pic.. well

ya.. i saw his pic w his gf..

did i say i had no feeling.. den it was fake..

i juz felt kinda stoned at it.. well.. afterwards i got dc and i dun feel like going back animore..

so i din return.. was online for quite a while.. he was in when i was online.. but he dun wan to talk to me.. so i believe that he's avoiding me in case of complications..

i truly realised of just being frens.. y lose a fren becoz something lidat happen.. i sld be grown up enuff to think.. i really do tot of tat.. but since tat's the way he wans it.. it's better for both of us.. den let it be tis way..

So far.. things happened and passed and gone.. no matter wat i dun think i have ani regrets now.. certain things is beyond everybody's control..

And i cried before i sleep.. reason being y am i feeling sad miself.. i sld be happy tat i have overcome the feeling and just being frens.. guess the part is tat i think he noes tat i like him and he just wanna avoid me all the way.. and really y am i sad over seeing the photo..

And i told myself.. i can't cry animore..

I guess i shall not go online more often.. hmm.. sld i say i need to face the pic.. his nick n everything.. yes i did.. in fact seeing his nick is really a no feeling kinda thing.. perhaps seeing a new pic is erm.. hm.. can't hide tat feeling huh..

y does the heart control the mind and the mind control the tears..

I am not sad animore.. becoz think of this.. u live each day wanting to fulfill something yet u really cannot waste ur time. So i need to be happy making the day worth living for..

Be part of me tells me tat the old kel is dead.. n she's startin to lead a new life.. with new activities around her..

waitin for shuhui to come back and we'll learn drums 2gether.

going to kl/genting trip w the rest of mi dss frens..

tis xmas and countdown.. not going out.. purely gonna stay @hm.. unless there's gathering..

wun be silly enuff to hit the orchard road alone..

Wish there's someone to spend with.. but well..

Meeting wen later for dinner... at least somethin 2 do later on.. haven catch up w tis ger for a long while..

Guess mi own stuff had lead me to talk w ppl less these days.. and becoz of working rite now.. no one else to talk to.. and bloggin had become something for me to say out mi piece. So suddenly i dun wish to bother people with mi absurd words..

Everyone is so busi and yet i'm the onli free soul.. wat's happening man.. mi mum kept askin me y i dun go out.. dun go out is good ma.. save $ ritez

Okiez i gotta stop here..

Gonna wait till end of the month to get mi pay.. and i believe i can do it!

Keep smiling people.. it will brighten off your day!

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