I really dunno

Last nite was starin into space.. and forcing miself to sleep.. kept tossing in bed.. why why why...

it's not able stayin at mi aunt house.. but is just.. hmmz i kept thinkin abt tat thing which i should not..

i'm bored literally.. i can't find someone to talk to.. i can't find someone to go out with.. Hai.. i'm such a bored person.. or perhaps everyone is so busy with their own stuffs and ya.. who cares abt me aniwaez..

Silly.. silly.. tat's y i like to go sch.. make more frens and sch daes are much more fun than working daes.. i wish i've a huge circle of frens.. who they can include me with when they plan their stuffs.. now everyone is like having their own separate things to do.. i dunno.. who really cares abt me aniwaez.. Busy is just an excuse.. don't u find it? Just a mere sms wun kill.. just saying a HELLO wun kill.. or just sms for alittle chat will be alrite.. but who can think of that.. and who can i find such a person to talk to.. i can't and i dunno where i can find such a person.. As usual.. this kind of period where everyone else is busy except myself.. i can't blame no one.. is my own fault.. y don't i just find something to entertain miself.. yes.. tat's y i been indulging miself in watching youtube clips.. watching tv shows.. wat else.. doin mi cross-stitching.. all these are just to keep mi bordem away..

Hai... tat's so much one person can do to entertain ownself.. sigh.. wish i can have that little more courage to cope with loneliness i'm feeling now.. all along i tot i did it well.. but is time that it can't seems to hide away.. tears rolled down mi cheeks.. and i wonder why i had mixed feelings.. is not abt being sad but is just very xin fan.. i dunno y i'm feeling this way.. can someone tell me y?

I met my MRT guy.. twice this week.. and it's unbelievable qiao.. or sld i say i jump into the train when he board.. coz if not i'll miss it if i din walk faster la huh.. Watever.. i dunno.. see him liao abit shy.. dun dare to face him.. but wished i could biao from far.. but not today.. position abit not rite.. so i stood far away..

So that's abt him la... nothing fancy to talk abt.. so wat if we took the same train.. i noe his existance tat's all..

Okie.. dun wan2 bored ppl reading this.. i noe i'm such a pain sometimes.. see la.. i'm in the self-talk stage.. i think i'm goin crazy soon if i can't find someone to chat with.. how how..

Tot tonite goin out for 'supper', or at least not stayin @home.. in the end was cancelled.. okie nvm.. not tat i'm very keen in the meetup.. is just somethin else to do..

When i'm busy.. everyone said miss me la.. can't wait to go out together.. but when i'm free for the whole week.. there's no soul to meet me.. and further more no more sch means our uni gang dun even meet together liao.. dun need to go back sch..

One big part me felt so lost lidat.. yet i'm easily adjusting to the surrounding.. for now is all work and work and work.. endless of it... work till i'm 25 still the same.. i can't imagine.. what should i do really? So i can stop clinging onto mi frens.. complainin the whole hell of time that i'm so free lidat..

If only time can pause down.. i really wanna take a good break out of here.. to really cool down.. to san san xin.. to think it thru.. and come back with a new ME.. tat's wat i wan.. but i noe i can't.. so i'm still sticking back to mi old me..

Tell me wat to do coz i really dunno...