Not looking back to e past

Somehow i missed blogging..

Not tat i'd alot of stuffs to bomb the whole chunk of blog out..

well is just tat some stuffs tat i wanna say out but certain times later.. i just forgot abt it and yeah nothin to say in the end..

am lookin @ mi week.. wat am i doing for this week.. *puzzled*

going out w mi cousin later.. after like a mth tat i din see her alreadi.. yes yes finally.. *really lookin 4ward 2*

tml, am gonna get the trip done and settled @jurong point. it's the agency gunung raya tat i went up to kl w wen n jo.. despite erm lao ya seats.. but one thing is cheap la.. n for super peak season.. dun complain much can le lo.. haha.. $159 leh.. coz the rest is near to $200.. which is much ex.. uh huh..

guess afterall i hope it's fun, there's only like 4-5 gers in the end of the dae.. all can't confirm.. certaintly it was quite hard for them, some in ns n sch things.. $ prob.. so we shall have fun w just 4-5 of us!

really lookin for something.. yeah somewhere out of here.. for me to relax and get a breather..

i'm just prayin hard tat next yr i could go back to sch.. to learn new things and to get a better salary for mi career.. of coz i wun be an insurance agent.. neither in an insurance firm.. but but.. if one dae well.. insurance agent can be a part-time job if u need $.. and it's not tat hard coz it's all abt talkin! convincing customers.. etc etc

oh yes, sat had a marathon of LOST season 1 @ xian's hse.. wow! we watched like from 2pm afternoon all the way to 4am.. butt pain sia.. really... but we managed to left like 3 more epsiodes and catched it the very next dae 11am.. before we head to city square..

i think i'm lookin 4ward to season 2... it's just a mystery wat the hell is in the hatch and who r the 'others', wat happened to walt and michael, sawyer and jin... but i read some recaps on the official site.. guess xian, u dun wanna noe first.. hmm pretty interesting la.. if starhub got marathon lidat.. will just glue me to the tv man!

So anione wanna borrow LOST, just gotta ask from me, and juz dl it into ur pc and watch using realplayer.. is so simple la.. hehe

great things r supposed to share.. so yeah..

for the past weeks, i think i'm living in the back.. guessed i'm back w mi sec sch frens.. it just made me like i'm back to those daes...

now.. it's not like before.. where we r just playin around.. sec sch times are like so young days..

like i'm very old now.. but truely once u step like in 21st yrs old.. i think time jumps so fast..

and pretty soon.. one gotta settle down w a family.. have kids and so on..

wow.. i can't imagine tat to happen..

mayb wedding dinner first.. like who? [dan&aud]?! hahaha... tis guy is really mad of marryin.. so yeah who noes ritez.. he mayb the first out of all mi frens..

it occurs to me tat i once told him tat either of us get married, we will sure ask each other for weddin dinner.. and i'm not sure if he would rem.. but tat's not impt now la huh.. coz i just lost a fren tat's all.. neither would i wanna bother him animore.. no suppers definitely.. complications man.. just hope one dae it could be sorted out.. as in purely frens.. tat's the only thing i wanna do..

think mi cousin will soon gonna be marrying off.. her potential bf is there.. alreadi plannin of hdb flat.. woahhh hehehe..

am i not even have a bf yet.. kel is slow la.. slow.. n fierce.. yeah fierce..

Mayb heaven is making me wait for someone good to come by.. or perhaps.. just fooling me around in circle.. somehow i feel is so unfair la.. y the hell is he so good.. have career, gf n everything he wans.. shit ass.. and i'm like sulkin here! really emptiness.. aimless.. nothin 2 look 4ward.. no no i shouldn't look at it tis way.. i'm waitin for someone good to make me worth loving for.. after all i had been thru.. really sucks! And i just wanna haf tat comfortable feeling.. protective and being there for me to go thru ups & downs.. hugs.. warm hands.. n someone to love n care abt.. tat's not hard rite.. i dun need a god damn handsome lookin kinda guy.. i just wan the guy to be good to me.. tat's super simple.. and plus i muz love him somehow.. not jut Mr A or Mr B lidat la..

So people believe in love @ first sight? i will believe there's love @ first sight.. love is blind is definitely true.. *love* wat the hell is tat?

I'm a little crazy 2dae.. wat's absurd words again..

is quite a meaningless blog.. coz i find mi life so meaningless now.. wat the hell..

mayb i wanna die.. just die.. like there's no tml...

Haha.. i'm kidding.. i dun wanna die so young.. appreciating every min every sec tat i live.. hehehe

coz i wanna get out of here.. n roam around the world.. i wanna see mi husband mi children grew old together.. and the life tat i'm living.. is gonna be happily ever after just like fairytale.. :)

KeL