Pissed and Annoyed

When will this nightmare end? Ah ma... i also dun wish such things to happen.. trying ways and means to make things work it out well.. i'm seriously sick and tired of all these nonsense.. everyday telling me the same thing.. everyday callin me during mi office hours abt the issue over and over again...

i feel like crying.. i'm driving insane.. i really think mi high blood pressure going up now..

Geez..

When can mi mum ever stop all these? Can't she tell such thing happen and not what we all want? Can't she be more understanding? Does she ever thinks about it?

When every other people in the family is concern about it.. when everyone knows what should be done and tries to help.. though is not a simple issue that can be solve overnight.. but slowly we're easing the pain away..

Can she tell i'm very sad over it? Despite losing my grandmother... i already feel very lost.. somehow the dearest grandmother i can call out to everyday.. every night.. is gone.. u noe how much pain it caused me? I cried every night and don't dare to cry out loud.. tears just roll down mi cheeks and i cried to sleep.. who ever knows about all these?

I feel like escaping.. escaping to a place where i can be left alone..

I seriously dunno what i will do.. but i'm very xin ku..