Stop envying people!

Somehow in my heart.. envying people around me. Sometimes a question will pop out in my head, y can't i be like them? Why is my life going the hard way? Perhaps is hard for everyone too.. Just that i don't get to see it..

No worries, i'd get over it.. stop envying people.. if my life is lidat, i've to live with it. Perhaps doing better and how to achieve that first step in getting better.. I just pray for miracle to come..

Tomorrow, everyone is going out to countdown, or with their love ones and friends.. I'm gonna be at home.. sleepin over it.. dun even feel like tuning to any program that says countdown 2008..

Doesn't need to be sad at this time.. even if nobody asks me.. everyone had their plan.. come to tell me is a good rest u noe.. den i've to live with it rite..

Is not the wanting so badly to go out.. but with the people to sort of celebrate it i mean.. but i noe.. tml is a disaster once u wanna go home..

Initially i tot of perhaps can gather at a fren's house and chit-chat.. do somethin fun mayb.. But i guess nah.. is not gonna be fun..

And i've a gatherin on 1st jan.. not sure.. just go with the usual mood ba.. Nothin much to anticipate, just updating on each other life.. talkin abt the gers taiwan trip.. tat's all.. i got nothin interestin to share.. oh well..

After hearing Jay concert tickets are finally confirmed.. felt relief! Coz is somethin i wanted to go badly.. somethin that i could excite me alittle..

I can't imagine how my 2008 will turn out.. Could it be a smooth sailing one? I really dunno.. Now i feel lousy.. just hoping things will turn out better.. Is really a low low period now.. Geez.. it's alwaes lidat.. like a cycle or somethin~ Who cares anyway~

Tml still gotta work.. 1/2 day.. i forsee mi boss gonna dump me the proposals.. aniwaes.. but only workin for 4hrs.. quite fast and den i will go home... perhaps finishing up my cross-stitch which i plans to give to huiwen on her housewarming..

Nitez den..

Kel