Life on 16th April 2006

Feeling... mixed of emotions

Feeling... numb

Feeling... painful

Feeling... sleepy

Feeling... ......

Sun morning! I'm still not in bed yet.. beats me..

Sudennly talkin abt wisdom tooth with daniel n alvin n wanlin...

It's been painful for the past whole week.. still bearing the pain.. and is still so painful.. i dunno when i'll surrender the pain..

Hm.. juz ate a panadol and felt so much better..

I really hope i dun haf to go extract out n drink blood of water...

Online now.. chattin with the guys still..

Seems like mi dear fren dan is heading a good life.. working in a good company and studyin part-time @sp for engineering.. and of coz gf to keep his life so fulfilled..

Yearnin for a moment to feel so blessful...

Was telling him tat i'm at the stage of dunno where mi life leads me.. whether to work or to study..

I can onli choose to work now.. provided the uni accept me.. otherwise.. i will continue to work.. And a headache question is yes.. working

Am i gonna continue to be a PA and get paid at this low level.. i dun see miself in it for anor year.. Perhaps gettin a new job of erm marketing? or to be an independent advisor.. It's takes a huge step to do it.. Coz i'm sure mi frens will run away from me.. It's the tendency.. I mean i dun force ppl to buy things from me in such a way tat i earn mi commisson n a bowl of rice at the month.. but the awareness to people tat they noe wat they're doing n the years ahead.. a proper planning in their financial issue.. so mani mani things..

Geez.. wat do i really wan?!

I need a break.. to breathe.. i feel suffocated..

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